Here's his typical (and I use that word loosely) sleep pattern:
- 9:30-10:30 wake for the day
- 11:30--nap for 1hr
- 2:00--nap for 30min
- 5:00--nap for 30min
- 8:00--nap for 30min
- 10:30-11:00 bedtime...clean diaper, pj's, swaddled, nurse, Dr. Seuss book, crib
Some days he'll get two 2hr naps in. A lot of days he'll never sleep a full hour.
I literally have NO idea how often he's waking at night now. I pull him into bed with me and nurse him. At some point I wake back up and slide him back into his crib (it's pushed up against our bed with no front on it). I'd guess I'm waking at least 4 times a night, not for very long, but still.
I'm not ready to try any sleep training that involves him crying. I just can't handle it. He gets this panicked look on his face, flairs, and tears fall when he screams and it breaks my heart. I don't know what else to do or try. DH has no patience for his screams and as of right now, Squirmy won't take a bottle (though I think he might soon...more on that later).
I feel so stuck. I want to do the right thing. I want to make the short term sacrifice for the long term gain, but I don't know what that is. I really wish I had some parenting expert of some sort to talk this over with. I already lie to our ped about our sleeping arrangements and he's been pushing me to get Squirmy into his own room for months now anyway. I'd hate to be one of those parents who complains about their situation and then does nothing about it, but I just don't know what TO do.
Not sure if I'm looking for advice or empathy or just a space to complain....but this....this SUCKS.